And So it began

"ONCE UPON A TIME"....there came along this little lump...insignificant really when you compare it to the entire world of lumps. That is, right up to the point that it wasn't...insignificant I mean............... and so began my journey.

A NEWER SHADE OF PINK...now I more then SURVIVE...I am learning to THRIVE...

OF COURSE... we all know things are bound to get a little crazy with a surprise around most every corner...not to mention an assortment of bumps and bruises along the way...but I am ever thankful for them all...they have all made me who I am. So buckle up, hold on tight and enjoy the ride thru what I lovingly refer to as LIFE


Sunday, July 12, 2015


Well...as you see...I have just passed my 3 yr mark since this crazy journey began....and it has been some ride!!  Sometimes it feels like some crazy dream....I know it may seem hard to believe when you look in the mirror and your a "uniboober" BUT....it really does!!!!  At least until you go to get out of a chair or throw that crazy dance party in your kitchen or decide to plant flower gardens around your house for the first time ever....(yup...that was me) and you realize there are WAY more aches then there should be in places you didn't know could hurt...OYE....don't even get me started on the stamina.  It has....and continues to be... a HUGE learning curve with new surprises around every corner.  Just when you think you have come a mile you realize it's just a few steps and the "old me" is so far out of reach....it's sometimes hard to catch a glimpse of her shadow up ahead. Why is it we always want what we don't have...or had once and let it slip away? "IF ONLY....I could" or "IF ONLY I appreciated it when...then I would.."...is a dangerous slope to get caught on but I admit I balance on it now and then.   But don't get me wrong....every step is one more forward on the path of "NOW I CAN/WILL..." with its new set of discoveries and challenges like this little gem for ya......

...Just when you forget that this is an ongoing disease that my body will always be trying to ward off....some new side-effect caused by that nasty troll shows its face....case in point....Type 2 diabetes.  Ya....that was straight out of left field. I was completely blindsided in December with that little nugget  and its own set of life changes.  For those who are not diabetes-aware...here is a REAL "readers digest" version.....it is caused by pancreas trouble and your body's insulin....in a nut shell.....largely effected by lousy high sugar/carb diet.  In my case it was damage to that pancreas from the cancer and chemo.....I was hooped out of the gate...sigh.  Now I am sure you all remember my SERIOUS phobia regarding needles or any sharp object poking skin.....ya, well....HUGE LEARNING CURVE....and it wasn't pretty...but I got thru it and I'm okay with it all now...shocking right?!?!?!  They like to have your A1C number (average of blood glucose over a 3 month period) at 6.4....mine was 10.8...oops!  My finger prick (again like it to be between 4-10) was a staggering 20.8. I was shocked...no wonder I was feeling so lousy.  So I got down to business and started watching carbs (my life line while going thru treatment & the year of nausea that followed) and within 3 weeks my prick numbers were 4-6 and at my 3 month check my A1C was 7.2.  I just had it done in June and I am 6.0....fyi that is non-diabetes glucose levels.  Yup...I am REALLY proud of myself.  Now as I have discovered....there is always a hitch when the Troll is involved.  Unlike most people when they change their way of eating that you need to make copious amounts of weigh are lost.....NOT SO MUCH...ARGG!!!  Always that .2% that doesn't do things like every other normal person.  BUT everyone says I look way better that my color is better and I feel better too so really....that when it comes down to it.....is the only thing that really matters

I got the call from my family doctor June 29, 2012 @ 2:30pm  giving me THE cancer call and as is the usual way little tender mercies happen in your life....I got the call from my oncologist June 29, 2015 @ 2:30pm to tell me all the bone scans, CTs and MRI's I had just done (because she found a tender spot she wanted to investigate) came back clear.  I was so thankful for now having that day & hour be something powerful....


I NOT ONLY SURVIVE.... I FIGHT BACK...
BUT NEVER ALONE...THANK YOU!!!