Next chemo is the start of a whole new drug cocktail and so all bets are off at this point as to how I will react to it.  They warned me of the possibility of more aches and pains and BIG TIME exhaustion - I guess we will just wait and see - I didn't really follow the usual path on the the last 4 treatments so it's just wait and see now.  It has been such a thrill to have my family and friends come and spend time with me helping where they could...trying to take the heavy load off of VoR.  He is my ROCK and my ANCHOR...he's  never to busy to drop what he is doing to go grab something for me...he never complains when he has to come home after a long day at work and run the household...and is ALWAYS there when I need to just be held and told "I'm okay and it's still ME he sees"...bald, scars and all... 

 HE IS MY HERO!!!!

     It's amazing to be the receiver of so many prayers, blessings and well wishes from dear friends both old and new....I truly feel them all. It is such a sweet tender mercy to feel the Lord holding me gently in his arms....knowing His plan for me is bigger then any other force on this earth  & beyond anything I could ever have thought possible for me...and so I travel this cancer journey as He sees fit..giving me the strength, experiences and lessons I need to learn from this.  So you see really...only He knows what's in store for me....how I'm feeling, coping and reacting to every little nuance as I go thru this with an eye focused on Him...knowing... He is in control and I have total faith in Him.  He is my BROTHER, SAVIOR and LORD.  He as walked this path before me, having experienced ALL that I am asked to go thru and face in this earthly existence in the Garden of Gethsemane.  What a comfort to my soul to know He knows EXACTLY how I feel and so knows best how to help and carry me thru ANYTHING & EVERYTHING...trial, heartache, joy, hick-up and miss-step I will have. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, to the deepest parts of my spirit that...

 HE LIVES... HE LOVES ME...HE KNOWS ME PERSONALLY!!!!

 

I have felt His gentle embrace and guiding hand thru my life & especially thru this journey.  Prayer works!!!  If we are humble, sincere and accepting of His will of what is best for us even if it's not what we would have asked for or wanted...He will be there to help you thru the growing pains, smoothing the rough edges no matter the cause.  We just need to take time to pause and listen for those promptings of the Spirit then be brave enough to follow them. 

 

We are NEVER alone