And So it began

"ONCE UPON A TIME"....there came along this little lump...insignificant really when you compare it to the entire world of lumps. That is, right up to the point that it wasn't...insignificant I mean............... and so began my journey.

A NEWER SHADE OF I more then SURVIVE...I am learning to THRIVE...

OF COURSE... we all know things are bound to get a little crazy with a surprise around most every corner...not to mention an assortment of bumps and bruises along the way...but I am ever thankful for them all...they have all made me who I am. So buckle up, hold on tight and enjoy the ride thru what I lovingly refer to as LIFE

Tuesday, February 19, 2013 I am a day late....but regardless....I thought I would repost this picture and wish everyone

This  post is dedicated to those we love and those our loved ones have just lost so suddenly

     This has been a difficult week for a couple of dear people in my life and gave me a moment to reflect on those loved ones I have lost and revisit my truth surrounding loss and death and what comes next.
     When a death comes so suddenly (even not so suddenly) into our lives we are overwhelmed and just go into "auto pilot" because as women we are always making sure others around us are's that mothering gene we are all born with.  When in actual fact we should allow ourselves to feel the grief and loss and then get up and move ahead.  Having lost both my parents and VoR's mom many years is safe to say....I didn't do such a great job at that.  I focused on everyone else so I didn't have to come face to face with what had happened. It was great in the beginning but eventually as is the rule of gotta sit back and face it all.  That is when I came to this crossroad moment...
- let it define my life
-let it destroy my life
-find the strength to stand
- learn the lesson it could teach me.
     I decided I needed to stand up and find the lessons....then I could learn them.  It was time to put my money where my mouth was and decide IF I really believed what I had spent my life saying I believed.... DEATH is NOT the is ONLY the next step/return to my eternal home and the  loved ones waiting to greet me. Because my elder brother Jesus Christ atoned for my (and every ones) sins we will be resurrected....reuniting our perfected body and spirit becoming one forever.  You here isn't intended to last forever and if your bodies weren't subject to aging we would be stuck in this imperfect state without the ability to grow and become all that our Heavenly Father intended us to be. It's important for us left behind to remember that it's okay to feel that great loss...We can't help but long to hear the voice, see the beautiful face, feel the presence of and long for the touch the ones we lost.  Even with the secure knowledge of the Plan of Salvation, it doesn't really replace the longing, loneliness we feel but it does soften the pain...