As my mom used to say...
"Spring has sprung, the grass is ris,
I wonder where the birdies is?
Well...I have once again let time slip away from me. I have decided that with the end of treatment comes the SLOW return of ambition and the ability of actually doing a bit more....I can't say it is a daily return...I am definitely WAY more tortoise then hare...but I am taking steps in the right direction. The big problem is that I no longer have a bed in my living room (YEA FOR ME!!!) so my convenient location of my laptop (well really ..all the stuff I actually use daily) has also moved...who knew a living room bed could be so handy. I will try to plan my days/weeks so I can be more regular at those things I did better at when in treatment......but really...who am I kidding, there is no such thing as "regular" at this point....some hours/days are better and some are just not...as I expected. What I wasn't really counting on (& a point of HUGE frustration at times)is that my ambition/desire to get up and get things done would bounce back SOOOOOO much faster then my body's ability and willingness to actually join my brain's push back to "normal"....I am trying to be patient and reign in the old brain....again it all comes back to pacing....I am getting better....once in a while.
Since my last post (again....way tooo long) there have been some changes happen...again some good some not so....but more good then bad this time....
The Big Exciting Fun this time is that Random Wisdom went to her 2nd wedding dress fitting and the dress is AMAZING!!!! The alterations lady is really truly our "Fairy Godmother". She captured RW's vision to the tiniest detail....she has such an amazing gift....a true artist.....maybe after the wedding I will let you see the dress. Until then....sorry friend.
The Big Fun is that the "Gram's Trip" is book and ticket bought!! I can't wait to go see those (growing too fast) darling "grand-girls"!!!!...oh ya...their parents too. VoR is such a great man to surprise me (and insist that I make the time...almost 3 wks....to go) with this gift of a pre-wedding planning crunch time getaway. I have travelled often alone and that is okay....but I have to admit the "suddenly tired" aspect this close after treatment is a tad worrisome. I have crazy long lay-overs (thanks Aeroplan) so I won't have to rush between gates on my connections so that is a blessing. You can bet I am gonna take them up on that "extra time pre-boarding" option.
The Not-So-Good is that somehow/where along this end of treatment road my left wrist started to really give me painful trouble. Now that in and of itself is super sucky but if you take into account that my right side is still healing and now my left wrist is NOT HAPPY....the "how to's" of holding grand-girls is a little daunting. I have done everything to try and make it better (ice, wrap, splint, the anti-inflammatory & Tylenol route, etc...) but it continues to scream louder every day. I don't think it is related to anything...other then "bad timing"...I have had it x-rayed so nothing is broken...just really not happy. I have a follow-up with oncology on Monday so I will have them check it too...who knows if it's related to chemo or radiation.
And to top it off.....I Bought a BOOB!!!! I decided with cool weather a thing of the past and recovery from radiation well under way (BTW...I never did blister or have any skin issues except a bad sunburn...SOOO blessed)....I needed to rejoin the "normal world" until we can reconstruct. So I went and got fitted for a fake boob and specialty bras....since there is no hope of wearing a regular one for now. It really is cool....it is silicone and weighted so stays in place....not like the quilt batting filled ones....don't get me wrong....it is not like the original "girl" I was born with...but not too shabby either....it would be hard for anyone (besides those who know I am missing one) to know that it's "bought and paid for". Not that it bothers me to be a "uni-boober" but it does make others REALLY uncomfortable and that isn't what I want to do. Now I just need to come up with a nick-name for it..."the boob" is just a little boring and since it is needing special care and storage....I think it deserves to be named.....I will keep you posted (suggestions are welcome...tee hee!!)