Back to the Recovery Wagon business for a minute...
I met with my surgeon this week....hold up a second....let me back up a few days. Wednesday last week I had my first mammogram on my one lonely "girl"...no big deal....I have already been thru the "worst that could happen/biggest fear" that all us women have so whatever. Then FRIDAY came and a phone call from the hospital telling me "they saw something but they aren't sure what if anything and need to redo the mamm and follow with an ultrasound just to be sure.
ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME!!!
I will shamefully admit that there were some not so nice things running thru my head. I ranted and swore (tiny ones) at my surgeon, oncologist, radiation-oncologist....pretty much anyone with medical training that had come near me in the last year. I had wanted them to take both "girls" right from the beginning and they wouldn't and this is what I get. It lasted about 5 minutes and then I just threw up my hands looked in the mirror and said "whatever....we have danced this once...whatcha gonna do...shoot the swans?" (name that movie quote). I concentrated my resolve from before to not let this happen again...this "girl" is just waiting to betray me too and frankly....I won't let her. After I calmed down and actually thought about it....the redo mamm isn't until the end of Sept....and my file is still probably "red flagged" since it hasn't been a year and so ANYTHING gets a closer look...and if it had been something to worry about they would have hauled my butt in there WAY sooner.
Now back to the surgeon appt....he wasn't concerned with the redo....just told me to follow up with oncology for results but he would gladly set me up for a consult with a plastic surgeon to talk about losing "old lefty" and reconstructing the "girls 2.0". So I got a hold of my Breast Action Group to get some peer support calls and recommendations from other women that have already done this. I have learned a ton and have narrowed down my search to a couple of doctors.
SIDE NOTE....btw....we went away for the long weekend (a road trip) and discovered I still get really car sick....it was 12 hrs of not much fun. Hopefully over time that corrects itself or I will be ticked...I love road trips...just not this year apparently.....sigh But I must add that it feels like overnight the weather has turned a page. No more air conditioner and windows wide open (to the chagrin of other members of this household) it was a balmy 16*c in my house yesterday....needless to say...it didn't take them long to run around after work and shut them...double sigh!! My favorite part is that the evening smells have gone from onion and garlic loaded BBQs to fireplaces....I LOVE FALL!!!