CHEMO #2
Well...that was a shocker!! Not only was I NOT nauseated with the last cocktail...but I feel better in these last 7 days then I have in the last 2 months. VoR & I were talking and came up with a theory...maybe I don't feel as good as I usually do but this is soooo much better, that I just think I feel as good as I do and if you compared it to my real normal....I am not really feeling all that good. Are you confused yet??? Re-read it...you will get what I am trying to say. ;)
What ever the reason...I have gotten a ton of the "little krap" done that really serves no purpose other then to make the stay, in my new "livingroom/office/ bedroom more comfortable. I have had a chance to put everything exactly where I want it and gathered all the stuff from upstairs, in my real office & bedroom, so that when this chemo business really kicks in I won't have to climb the stairs to get it. I don't remember a lot & it's probably a good thing that I can't remember just how yucky it was. It's kinda like labor...between babies...it was a beautiful experience...once your pregnant, it comes rushing back in a flood of emotions, weight gain & pain...lots of pain (remember that needle phobia...ya, no epidural..BIG NEEDLE). Seriously...how nuts is that?? I went thru all 3 labors with no pain meds, just to avoid any needles. At the time it made sense but looking back..what the heck!?!? One good thing came of that...well, 3 actually, but besides them...I was privileged to be a birth coach for a few amazing women & together we had some really cool labor experiences along with some really cute babies....Thanks ladies for allowing me to be part of your journey.
Somehow I seemed to spend a lot of time on the phone & online too..who knew there were so many details to get done. Between postponing doctors appointments and cancelling VaCa (vacation) reservations & booking flights for the Empress of Awesomeness & Random Wisdom to come home to visit, I spent a butt load of time on the phone. I think the first thought thru my mind when the oncologist said we needed to start chemo was the "KRAP, that means we don't get to go away in October" It's funny really, but we just love getting away and exploring New England & it's magnificent coast. This time we were headed to New Hampshire to just see the beautiful Fall leaves...there is always next year...sigh!!! On the other hand, I am soooo EXCITED that the GIRLS ARE COMING HOME!!!! It is so great to be together with the kids, even just one family at a time. You can just imagine the silliness that is a constant when we are all together...which BTW...isn't near often enough (again I just can't say it enough...feeling really good). I was just as excited when Pragmatically Speaking was home...then this infection exploded on to the scene. Even so...I was so glad to see him (even if the first couple of days are a bit hazy) and to have him here so he could be here for VoR. He was a great distraction & a reason so that VoR wouldn't sit in my room and worry. So within a couple of months they have all been home. I'm not really thrilled at the reason, but we'll take the positive and be grateful. When it's all said and done what I have mostly been doing this week is all those little irritating jobs and calls that VoR just hates to deal with...so if I can help him out just a smudge, that works for me, big time
This little reprieve from being so sick has done wonders for my feeling of well being and control. I don't think I can put into words just how HUGE this blessing has been to me but it sure qualifies as a Tender Mercy. I don't know how I would have dealt with these next 18 wks (end of November) feeling as awful as I did. My heart so goes out to all those that live with that reality with every single day...they are the strongest people I know.
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