And So it began

"ONCE UPON A TIME"....there came along this little lump...insignificant really when you compare it to the entire world of lumps. That is, right up to the point that it wasn't...insignificant I mean............... and so began my journey.

A NEWER SHADE OF I more then SURVIVE...I am learning to THRIVE...

OF COURSE... we all know things are bound to get a little crazy with a surprise around most every corner...not to mention an assortment of bumps and bruises along the way...but I am ever thankful for them all...they have all made me who I am. So buckle up, hold on tight and enjoy the ride thru what I lovingly refer to as LIFE

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

      Let me start by saying....I can't believe how krappy I am feeling. It seems to be the further I get from surgery the more painful it gets!!! I'm sure it has to do with the nerve block finally fully coming out....whatever the SUCKS!!! Not to mention all the crazy sensations...phantom boob and all. Your nerves do all sorts of crazy things when they have been cut of interfered with....for example...the backside of my bicep feels like the nerves are all sitting on the surface so every time it touches anything it is like sandpaper on an open wound (too graphic....sorry) All I know is that is not making me a happy person....I think I am whining all the time but according to VoR he hasn't heard me so I must be timing my episodes perfectly.

      On the upside...I am gaining back some of my independence...I can dress myself...get in and out of bed and pull my own toilet paper (stop laughing already....that is a HUGE accomplishment...just sayin). These may not seem worth mentioning but with VoR going back to work....these are huge hurdles to get over before he leaves. He has been the BEST NURSE EVER!!!!!

      Now you add to all that schmutz...the sudden and total exhaustion that comes out of nowhere wiping me right out and causes me to stop everything and sleep...NOW!!! have a pretty good snapshot of my day. Today for example...I was in the middle of this post and BOOM!!!! I had to sleep....4 hrs later I am back to finish it. It is the craziest thing cause I am so NOT a has made me understand my dad better.

     He was notorious for falling asleep anywhere anytime...typing letters, watching TV, middle of conversations and watching slides (old school...way before digital photos were even were thought of). He used to believe that standing up would keep it from happening when in actual just made his sudden napping that much funnier. We would be checkin out family photos and suddenly you would hear him "sashaying" across the floor trying to get his balance after falling asleep standing up....still make me giggle just thinking about it. It was so endearing but up til now a totally foreign concept to me. He was always such a good sport as we teased him and always laughed right along with us. Now that I am having the same issues (even just temporarily) it really does happen that fast and is totally annoying...but it is what it is 

My still such a true HERO to me!!!