I don't really know what I was expecting but I am pretty sure it wasn't this "brain block" exhaustion. I knew I would be tired but not beyond the point where sleep wasn't what I wanted. It's really just the overwhelming need to just lay down and be completely zoned out…the stare out the window at nothing zoned out kind of exhaustion...seriously....when the idea of squishing toothpaste on your brush requires a nap first....it's never a good thing. My plan all along has been that once I got into the bowels of treatment I would at the very minimum post twice a week....not ever thinking that the single act of "thinking" and composing a post would be so monumental a task. So my plan for Sunday was to do some scripture study, go to church and post....the reality....studied some scriptures, outlined a post and slept.....epic fail.
So here we are on Monday and I will try (amid day 2 of "Holy Pooped") to get this done and posted before the end of the day....wish me luck....I just might need it as the "Nap thrusters" are fully firing at the moment...and as I already mentioned the idea of squishing toothpaste on my brush requires a nap first....sigh!!!
And....sadly....here we are now Tuesday morning....
DOG GONE IT....
I WILL GET THIS DONE TODAY!!!
Well...we started a new drug cocktail to help with the lingering nausea and I can't even tell you the difference a week and good drugs makes!!! All I know is that this new cocktail they have brewed for me is a miracle. I have (thankfully) not had any more "Tigger" days and the few turns I have taken with nausea have been handled easily...and probably caused by me trying to eat something new. For the record...Kraft dinner, soggy Frosted Flakes, and ginger snaps can get to be a smidge boring. It is a pretty steep learning curve though....the gag reflexes kick in on the very first bite so I know right away if whatever I put in my mouth is a HUGE mistake. I am trying to avoid any of my Fave foods so they aren't tainted for me when I am done....probably silly....but worth it....just in case.
Not all my days are gloom, doom and sleep....I am feeling really good after the chemo for the first couple of days...which is really good considering the "hoops" I need to jump thru 48 hours after the first chemo treatment. I am chemo positive for those first 48 hrs so once that time has passed I need to double wash in HOT everything I have come in contact with (bedding, towel, clothing, dishes, etc.) along with a serious scrubbing of the bathroom. It really takes the entire day and by the time I am done....POOPED is exactly how I am feeling....but it is a small price to pay. I am just blessed that I feel good enough on that day to do what I need to get some form of normal life back into place....and after all....it is only every 2 weeks. (2 down, 6 to go!!!)