Here we are.....8 hours to chemo...
 

     There are so many thoughts and emotions flying around my brain...I will be lucky to be able to settle it down long enough to get any sleep. Last night was kind of a bust....between my right side still healing and the PICC line in my left arm....and not really being a back sleeper....it was pretty much a gong show.  Tonight is more the concept of facing the "unknown".  I know...all of this has been "unknown" but this is the BIG stuff. 

    

       You will remember my needle phobia.....my puking phobia is WAYYYYYY WORSE!!!!!  I have tried to "put on the big girl panties" about it but....I have failed miserably.....so here I sit with the terror of throwing up (EVEN ONCE) over the next 14 weeks roaring thru my mind at lightening speed. I don't think I am a that big of a coward....(except mice too) I have jumped in and done things in these last few months I never imagined I would do and be okay with it.....seriously....I have shaved my head, lost my boob, made it thru all the needles....but this is just the BIG ONE for me.  I must admit I am banking on really good meds (winky winky) 

 

      .  I KNOW I am not alone and He will get me thru this and all the other schmutz that I am required to slog thru...
 

Here goes nothing....and everything!!!!

xoxoxo