WOW am I glad the last couple of days are over!!!! Nausea reared its ugly head again with a vengeance!!! Thursday night I was so blindsided by this wave of nausea that was as bad as any I have felt thus far and REALLY thought I was not gonna win the battle this time. Poor VoR felt so bad for me and feeling helpless is not in his DNA so it was equally hard on him to have to just sit there. They did say that day 9-10 could be bad again....news flash....they were NOT kidding!!!!! I sat up in the chair the entire night listening to my iPod...singing (in my head...VoR had gone to bed under much protesting) to every song I know (and making up lyrics to the ones I don't)...FYI song writing is not my bag...just sayin’..it wasn't pretty. The most annoying part of this whole shenanigans...I had been feeling SOOO good for the couple of day before, so getting knocked down again SUCKED!!!
This is how the rest of the week went....."the Good, the Bad and the Ugly".
THE GOOD: Life is gonna change in a good way for one of our distant family members and I am really excited and happy for them. With any luck this chemo business will be all done on time and on schedule so I can be involved but chemo is something I have no control over. They check your blood before each chemo round and see if your platelets are rebuilding and your white blood cell count is high enough. If for some reason white cells are being lazy, that puts chemo behind schedule because they have to wait 7 days before they will test for them again. So what this really means...planning is almost impossible to do until about the last 2 treatments. I am scheduled to be done January (week of the 7th)...IF all goes according to the plan...but I will still have radiation and it can only be delayed a certain amount of time after chemo. Now having said all that don't for one second that I am not beyond this world happy....cause I SURE AM!!!!
THE BAD: I actually had my first real full blown Pity Party. Now if you knew me you would know that once I get past the initial hurt feelings...I turn to house cleaning. My house is always cleanest after I have turned my pity party into "whatever move on"....now I am mad and the house usually gets the brunt of it. I will go into high gear and clean and be ruthless with stuff lying around. What I didn't take into consideration was that "oh ya...I'm sick" and the fact I had already gone on a 45 minute walk so I was kinda tired already. Apparently the concept I thought I had mastered to "Pace myself" was grossly exaggerated and completely under rated...I am WAY more tortoise then hare. So I guess you could say I need to break out my inner Scarlett O'Hara because you see...she really made a good point and on the upside my house looks great.
THE UGLY: hmmmm...sorry Clint...I just can’t put a finger on any "ugly" yet...oh yes I can...Nausea!!!