The "HAG" has popped in for a quick visit...and with my lack of sleep, and that little life altering event called BC....I am not playing my "A" game today (the game face has relaxed a smidge)...sorry VoR!! (and he still loves me ...even likes to hang around me...go figure?!??!)

      Just in case you were curious (inquiring minds want to know...and all that stuff) cancer has not changed my life when it comes to technology....ARGG!!! Sadly, I repel it (shameless movie plug). As you have probably noticed I now have a "follow by email" button.....now here's the shocker....it isn't linking up (insert head hanging pout). I can see that you have sent me your emails...but ....that is as far as it goes. So when that happens...who better to call than "Pragmatically speaking" my own go to guy. He got in and checked all my setting and schmutz I didn't know existed and everything is hooked up right...it just isn't working. Sooo..."long story short"-you are back to having to go “old school” and take the time to look and see what's new.

     My other moment of "WOOW"!!! happened today too. I was going over a cancer care booklet they put together at the office for new patients...and I think I may have gone too far...Not really. They were showing pictures and talking about all the dyes they will inject into my boob (don't be offended by the word...it is shorter to type), and staples, stitches, pumps, drains and dressings after surgery and...can I just say....I don't think I have ever seen this color of green!!! It doesn't help that I have a doozer of a headache today (must be brewing up a big storm outside) Okay...stop laughing anytime!!! I should have expected that knee-jerk reaction...needles always make me queasy..I have to turn away if they are on TV. Now don't be thinkin I am wimp...I love to watch "movies for guys who like movies" (minus horror) and they never hit me like this. So sadly here I am almost 3 hours later...not feeling much better…and yes….I know this is just the beginning…it just happens to be a really big beginning point for me.

    I guess this was the first test to the full faith and trust I have been so confident about. Awful and ugly I can envision just fine....needles and pumps....not so much....SIGH