The "HAG" has popped in for a quick visit...and with my lack of sleep, and that little life altering event called BC....I am not playing my "A" game today (the game face has relaxed a smidge)...sorry VoR!! (and he still loves me ...even likes to hang around me...go figure?!??!)
My other moment of "WOOW"!!! happened today too. I was going over a cancer care booklet they put together at the office for new patients...and I think I may have gone too far...Not really. They were showing pictures and talking about all the dyes they will inject into my boob (don't be offended by the word...it is shorter to type), and staples, stitches, pumps, drains and dressings after surgery and...can I just say....I don't think I have ever seen this color of green!!! It doesn't help that I have a doozer of a headache today (must be brewing up a big storm outside) Okay...stop laughing anytime!!! I should have expected that knee-jerk reaction...needles always make me queasy..I have to turn away if they are on TV. Now don't be thinkin I am wimp...I love to watch "movies for guys who like movies" (minus horror) and they never hit me like this. So sadly here I am almost 3 hours later...not feeling much better…and yes….I know this is just the beginning…it just happens to be a really big beginning point for me.
I guess this was the first test to the full faith and trust I have been so confident about. Awful and ugly I can envision just fine....needles and pumps....not so much....SIGH